Well sunday nite back to school, tried out my programming shit ..still stuck and swam under the nice sun.I do not know why but I am feeling empty and want to be isolated from everyone lately.

It could be due to some worries in my head.. 1st my FYP, pretty slow 2nd what can I do after graduation? 3rd ..life?

Well I am still stuck in my programming and also feeling difficutly in locating my partner partly because he is comfortable being alone and this really creeps me.. I din know but I felt I am dying in it soon .

2nd, Well I am putting some extra effort in it but well I am still phobia of not making it thro the final sem. I am always in for such shit luck...

3rd, ... Met up with Avis and gigi and george over friday. I felt I am slow that I am still in college and this final year of uni is not worth it just because the NTU engine education system sucks... I felt old and really want to move on to another chapter in life. I know tons of people told me that working is worst than studying but .... I want to get out of this deadlock and proceed....

Ohh well I do not know what I become of but I no longer feel the urge to socialise but to stay in one conern and mind my own shit... I dont know .. I am lost and feeling empty...