Refugee of Paradise

Trying to find a way to worth living

Sunday, January 30, 2005

For thousands of years, men have tried to understand the rules when dealing with women. Finally, this merit/demerit guide will help you to understand just how it works.Remember, in the world of romance, one single rule applies: Make the womanhappy. Do something she likes, and you get points. Do something she dislikes and points are subtracted. You don't get any points for doing something she expects. Sorry, that's the way the game is played.Following is the official guide to the points system:

SIMPLE DUTIES

You make the bed: +1
You make the bed, but forget to add the decorative pillows: 0
You throw the bedspread over rumpled sheets: -1
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You leave the toilet seat up: -5
You replace the toilet paper roll when it is empty: 0
When the toilet paper roll is barren, you resort to Kleenex: -1
When the Kleenex runs out you use the next bathroom: -2
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You go out to buy her extra-light panty-liners with wings: +5
In the snow: +8
But return with beer: -5
And no liners: -25
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You check out a suspicious noise at night: 0
You check out a suspicious noise and it is nothing: 0
You check out a suspicious noise and it is something: +5
You pummel it with a six iron: +10
It's her cat: -40
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AT A PARTY

You stay by her side the entire party: 0
You stay by her side for a while, then leave to chat with a college drinking buddy: -2
Named Tiffany: -4
Tiffany is a dancer: -10
With breast implants: -18
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HER BIRTHDAY

You remember her birthday: 0
You buy a card and flowers: 0
You take her out to dinner: 0
You take her out to dinner and it's not a sports bar: +1
Okay, it is a sports bar: -2
And it's all-you-can-eat night: -3
It's a sports bar, it's all-you-can-eat night, and your face is painted the colors of your favorite team: -10
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NIGHT OUT WITH THE BOYS

Go with a pal: 0
The pal is happily married: +1
The pal is single: -7
He drives a Ferrari: -10
With a personalized license plate (GR8 NBED): -15
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A NIGHT OUT WITH HER:

You take her to a movie: +2
You take her to a movie she likes: +4
You take her to a movie you hate: +6
You take her to a movie you like: -2
It's called Cop 3: -3
Which features Cyborgs that eat humans: -9
You lied and said it was a foreign film about orphans: -15
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YOUR PHYSIQUE

You develop a noticeable pot belly: -15
You develop a noticeable pot belly & exercise to get rid of it: +10
You develop a noticeable pot belly and resort to loose jeans and baggy Hawaiian shirts: -30
You say, "It doesn't matter, you have one too.": -800
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THE BIG QUESTION

She asks, "Does this dress make me look fat?"You hesitate in responding: -10
You reply, "Where?": -35
You reply, "No, I think it's your butt": -100
Any other response: -20
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COMMUNICATION

When she wants to talk about a problem you listen, displaying a concerned expression: 0
You listen, for over 30 minutes: +5
You relate to her problem and share a similar experience: +50
Your mind wanders to sports and you suddenly hear her saying, "Well, what do you think I should do?": -50
You listen for more than 30 minutes without looking at the TV: +100
She realizes this is because you have fallen asleep: -20
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You get up in the middle of the night to check out a strange noise. 0
It's your air compressor, you forgot to turn it off. -15
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You plan to take her to Atlanta for a long week end vacation. +50
It's the same weekend the IPMS National Convention is being held. -100(and don't even think of the point loss if you spend more in the vendors room than she does shopping)

Friday, January 28, 2005

Well went to NIE library to study in the morning till late afternoon. not bad the environment felt very native compared to NTU. NTU libraries smells and very poor in air flow.

The crowd over at NIE is more presentable and more wow.... put in simply..

I had mailed my FYP sup to ask for the demo to be held on the monday after next. I know it's kinda of long and delay but we are basically not that free next week. I hope he will be a understanding person.

now ..2:30am.. .sleepy....

Thursday, January 27, 2005

Well how I am doing now ? Finally some bits of me are now getting back together again . FYP is going on strong and seems that Sup is in rather jolly mood. Ask for a meeting on friday 4:30pm, he said it's going home time. I cannot blame him, he got a young kid and a family... envious..

I had now feeling more and more isolated and could not find the mood to contact with my friends. I am sorry folks, I am now in some final-life crisis. I am a departing student, please allow me to do what is needed for the departature in the coming months.

I felt glad that someone is nice in this world. I had recieved a part of a model airplane from someone on the board in ARC, he stays in US and bother to do this all for me.. I am so gald. He did not ask for anything in return but I will send some decals and postcards of singapore to him soon when I leave the hostel for the week ....

Feeling tired... not physically but brain drained... I felt ..the need the need to swim ....
Oh here is an update of the responsiblilites I had undertaken for 05

Student of NTU, Ikoma Japanese School
Final Year Project
Man of the house... I had been handling the finanical and also maintainence of the house. pay bills, it's me... fixed a drawer it's me...
Aircraft Resource Center observer

Monday, January 24, 2005

I am really feeling low as my sense of exitence is getting out of me. I do not know waht is the hope or aim in my life . There is nothing much worth celebrating in my life. I am not good in many stuff..

I can be thinking too much as I have too much time in me but then , I do not know.. I want to go back to hk to work but the job offer to me is different from what I want to be. I do not want to stay in here as the people around me is different from me in some minor ways that is hard for me to accept... Where will i go ?


Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Things begin to falling out into billions of pieces now. Feeling rather under achieved in life. I was feeling down and remotely isolated, this is considered not bad as I will like to have sometime alone. Still touching with the FYP part and guess my partner had sense the urgency of our problem. Hope everything is okie and our sup just sympathize us ... I will live thro but .... in what shape? ?

Sunday, January 16, 2005

Well sunday nite back to school, tried out my programming shit ..still stuck and swam under the nice sun.I do not know why but I am feeling empty and want to be isolated from everyone lately.

It could be due to some worries in my head.. 1st my FYP, pretty slow 2nd what can I do after graduation? 3rd ..life?

Well I am still stuck in my programming and also feeling difficutly in locating my partner partly because he is comfortable being alone and this really creeps me.. I din know but I felt I am dying in it soon .

2nd, Well I am putting some extra effort in it but well I am still phobia of not making it thro the final sem. I am always in for such shit luck...

3rd, ... Met up with Avis and gigi and george over friday. I felt I am slow that I am still in college and this final year of uni is not worth it just because the NTU engine education system sucks... I felt old and really want to move on to another chapter in life. I know tons of people told me that working is worst than studying but .... I want to get out of this deadlock and proceed....

Ohh well I do not know what I become of but I no longer feel the urge to socialise but to stay in one conern and mind my own shit... I dont know .. I am lost and feeling empty...

Friday, January 14, 2005

well.... I was busy this early week so I could not blog. I had a long day in school from monday to tuesday. wed was quite okie, I managed to climb up the neverending stairs to the NIE library.The place is cool not much disturbance and best thing is the lack of the old dirty carpet smell the NTU has.... and of course the view are better in terms of scenic and people. brushed up on my amplifers.

Today went blading in ECP, not bad ..weather is good .. not that crowded. I managed to dig up my FYP stuff to do but it's was a hillfull of stuff......sigh .. hope things will get better for the FYP as I am getting more and more worried...Today article about playboy...well let me think..... some guys are born lucky.... look at those who get interviewed....overseas educated chap, half chinese, rich person....

I was wondering ..do we have playboys among a locally bornd bred, educated person,middle income family kid ??? I din know but based on this guidelines...he will have difficulties getting alot of girlfriends... oh welli am destined to be like that...

Friday, January 07, 2005

Well I went to Johor on wednesday, it was a sudden trip after I realised that I can go after my lectures. I went with KEn and Mae. I had not been to that area for well 12 -16 years..... god knows when ... the reason that I do not go there often as I do not have a car and the tot of taking slow moving buses to there and in the mist of the jam put me off.

Everything was fine, the customs were quick with just minor hiccups. Went to holiday plaza, it had not changed since I remembered.... alot of clothes and fake stuff but not bad.. also eyed on a card holder that I need it. I started to have more cards now.... Managed to get 3 anime Dvds, did not dare to get more due to the customs.

After that we went to eat Herbal Pork soup, not bad....it's ...well ermm taste abit queer... I only ate it less then 2 times since my residence in Singapore..We went to city square and that place was quite nice, and also alot of thigns to see. Then mae started to well behave like a girl.... and they had some minor dispute that I choose to stay out of it. Aniwei even if I am in, I cant solve it.

Rotiboy is nice..very nice..... crispy on the outside and soft on the inside... also the bread are nice too at the ground level.Went back to singapore around 8+ not bad ..what a trip... maybe going there coming sat. WAnt to get my card holder ! ..

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

Well how was first day of school ? umphh .... went for lunch with ken who managed to well bring me to acadmic block in my most sloppy attire..but i am on finals... so i do not care..

Study my number theory for the afternoon in hostel and because I could not withstand the dirt on my hostel floor, i mopped it..super tired but now it feels good .. i mean my legs...so clean and comfy...

E426 is my first lecture...god..it's hard..but oh well will put in more effort in it ... Made a sudden decision to attend my japanese class today as ken was going to town and could give me a ride ...also because i have nothing much to do at hostel now ... it's only day 1 of school.....

Went to eat thai food at the scott's food court... i realised their korean stuff is quite popular among korean... maybe one fine day in a distant future i will attempt it.. i am not a big fan of their food..

Japanese class...umphhh suprised to see Andrea ....but aniwei din really matter... only interested in lesson.. Sat beside Jennifer who is helpful and i really appreciate her help in my work...if not i am struggling again... 3 hours gone and then went back to hostel on the train ..super brain drained..

Ohh Sasaki senseh gave me a ampulet and some form of "red packet" for the new year for everyone... that is so nice of her... she is always totful of her students.... lucky she is my teacher.

Monday, January 03, 2005

Well finally I can see the sunlight after weeks of rain ... my dad had left singapore for hk and well my school had started..I do not feel bored of school but just took it ... without much strength to resist and hesitate, i had already grown acustomed to the misery ....

I had a strange dream last nite .. I do not know why ... after telling george I will sleep and dream of isabella rather than face the cruel singapore reality that faces me and him... I dreamt of a girl who is new in my japanese class but the place is in marine parade..... instead of shaw building?? werid..but it's a dream.. she was slender, fair and with short slight blonde hair with the certain sense of gentleness in her voice. She studied in ntu ..and we talk alittle in my dream and left but her tone was rather concerned and happy.... she left for the bus later... and i was awake to this cold world.... but indeed it was a nice dream .... I wish I can relive it in real live... but sadly... it's near impossible...

Lesson start at 4:30 today kinda of late and i thinking should i attend the japanese class tonite or on sat...ummmm...

Saturday, January 01, 2005

Well another year had passed and seems that life is pretty much the same or maybe i had shrugged off those major events happened to me... I guess if i am still alive..there is not much of major incidents happened to me . . .

Hope this year will be a good one... hope i can leave school in one piece...